最近，发现了一样好玩的东西，也不应该叫好玩啦，但就让我很沉迷。。。每一次都玩到不知时间过，总觉得每一次都玩不够。。。所以每天都会花至少半至一小时的时间在那。
半至一小时对现在的我来说已经是很长的时间了。我每天早上6点起床，出门工作，放工回到家大概旁晚7点，吃一下晚饭、懒散一下，都已经晚上8.30 了！我每晚平均10点鈡上床睡觉！算一算，我好像每天只有一个半小时的时间，做我自己想做的事情。上一下网、check一下email、看一下Facebook、写一下BLOG，时间都过得七七八八了。
不止钱不够用，时间也不够用啊！！！
不过说真的，时间不够用也未尝不是一件坏事。为什么我这样说？因为你不会有多余的时间去花钱！
你有太多的时间，赚多少也不会够花；时间不够用，给你再多的钱，你也没有本事花！时间就是金钱--用时间来花钱，还是用时间来赚钱，就得看你自己怎样想咯！
Aiks....好啦好啦！不要再说一大堆道理了！每个人看了都快打瞌睡了！
回正题！
究竟我是在说什么好玩？
我是在说，Facebook 里边的心理测验游戏。它们不是一般的心理测验，而是一些简单又容易被理解的测验游戏！之前就一直看人家在玩，我都把那些人归类为“有空的人”，因为我觉得很无聊！（不是在指任何人哦，如有激怒任何一方，请多多见谅!）想不到现在，我也成了他们的一族！
它不单只是一个游戏啦，而我觉得。。。每一天那么疲累的回到家，玩一下这些测验，看看测验结果。。。真的有助于松弛我紧绷的思绪！因为有很多时候，都会有我意想不到的结果！
其实我要写的就只有那么短，谁知道刚刚把话题扯开了，就变成长篇扩论的"文章"了。
好了。。。到此为止。。。有空再续。。。
p/s: 我那累坏的眼睛没有办法再重读了，只好把检查的工作留到下次吧！肯定有很多错字，请多多包涵！
Monday, April 13, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Decision
My Life is sosososo much Up & Down
in this special Moo Moo Year...
The 'volatility' make me feel so hard
to tell others... who actually I am
My feelings and emotions went up and down just like the share market nowadays
My thoughts and decisions change faster than the pace of the society
I'm so unpredictable
My mind struggle so hardly whenever it comes to the time for decision making
I have to walk through the 'opportunity cost'
Give up and make scarification
Walk till the end just with the decision that I used to exchange from another one
What a cycle of my life?
How many cycle do I have to go through for the rest of my life?
in this special Moo Moo Year...
The 'volatility' make me feel so hard
to tell others... who actually I am
My feelings and emotions went up and down just like the share market nowadays
My thoughts and decisions change faster than the pace of the society
I'm so unpredictable
My mind struggle so hardly whenever it comes to the time for decision making
I have to walk through the 'opportunity cost'
Give up and make scarification
Walk till the end just with the decision that I used to exchange from another one
What a cycle of my life?
How many cycle do I have to go through for the rest of my life?
Sunday, March 22, 2009
张惠妹-2009 STAR TOUR 大马演唱会
看到标题， 相信你也应该知道接下来我将会写什么吧！哈哈！
对！没错！我出席了张惠妹刚刚在马来西亚举办的演唱会！实在太棒了。。。真不愧我特地请假，故意搭巴士从北海去到吉隆坡，奔波劳累。。。就是为了她！
还记得， 6年前， 也就是2003年的11月。我的婶婶突然心血来潮，说要请我们去吉隆坡看”张惠妹2003年马来西亚演唱会”。那时候我的心情是—“就去凑凑热闹吧，反正我长那么大也没出席过演唱会，去体验一下也不错嘛！”就这样，就跟人走了！哈哈！
说老实的，对于张惠妹。。。一开始我真的对她没有特别的好感。 我认为她的唱歌风格并不适合我。认识我的人都知道，我一向以来都不爱听那些吵吵闹闹的歌曲，而我脑海里的张惠妹却偏偏只会唱这些歌，所以，我并不怎么去留意这个人。一提到说要去看她的演唱会，我也有犹豫了一下，不知道会不会很闷，毕竟我真的不是很认识她，更别说会唱她的歌！
2003年的那场演唱会，从没有好感，到接受她；从不认识她的歌，到每一次KTV都会点她的歌来唱。可想而知，那一场演唱会让我对她产生了多大的改变。可能那时候，我真的坐到很前面吧，她在现场所唱的每一首歌曲，都会从我的耳朵，再到我的身体，直到我的心里，打动了我！
我认识了她，张惠妹也会唱很多非常动听的抒情歌曲，她一开声，我的身体会有被“融化”的感觉（我不大会形容，不过我知道，每当我听到很好的歌，我都会有那种感觉）。听了很夸张吧？！哈哈哈！不过，那真是我亲身体验出来的。当然，全场她肯定不会只迁就我一个，单单唱抒情歌啦！劲歌热舞也是她的强项！试想想，我，一个不爱听快歌的人，竟然不知觉地投入进去，随着音乐摆动！不会唱也硬要跟着大家一起唱！不过被动的我并没有什么很大的动作啦，因为旁边的人也都在静静看表演嘛！过后我发现，其实她的快歌让我有放肆、放松的感觉！我可以拼命的喊，拼命的叫，感觉真的很好！而且，她的快歌并不是随便一个人都可以唱得好的，就像她的慢歌一样，少一点中气都不行！
好像有点离题了。。。哈哈哈！赶快飞回来6年后！
时间过得真快，已经6年了！问题是，我去KTV、听MP3，还是一样会点唱她的歌、听她的歌！为什么都唱不厌呢、听不厌呢？我个人觉得，可能是因为她的每一首歌都有一定的挑战性和它自己的特点吧！你今天唱得好，不代表你下一次也会有同样的水准！要练到好像张惠妹，对普通人来讲实在是非常困难！不过，只要你有本事把她的一首歌，完完整整的唱完，已经是很了不起了！不是吗？
2009的年头，听到广播台和电视台都在宣传这一个STAR TOUR演唱会，心里有痒痒的想要再去一次！有一天，朋友突然来电问我有没有兴趣出席这演唱会，我想都不用想就答应了！朋友还怀疑我，一直问我“真的吗？！”当然是真的啦！！
原本打算买最靠近的， 但所剩下的座位已近不大好了；所以决定买上面一层的！加上15%的折扣，一张票才RM202，真有够值的！
说真的，不知道是因为我工作太累，没时间想那么多，还是什么的。。。一路从北海到吉隆坡，直到进场的前一刻，我都没有特别兴奋的感觉，就很平常心！但一踏入Bukit Jalil Stadium, 我就开始感觉到那种气氛了，看见那庞大的舞台，加上人群、尖叫声、荧光棒、口哨声、纸牌等等。。。我开始期待阿妹的出现了！
现场分发的postcard
阿妹出台前，有一个短片。。。短片里有一只狮子，狮子和阿妹的脸一直交换出现，代表着什么呢？演唱会过后我也有问朋友—“为什么用狮子代表阿妹？”朋友说：“可能代表威猛、威严吧！”过两天看到网页才知道，原来她是狮子座的，然后用它为演唱会主题什么的。。。我也不太记得了。
当晚演唱会的相关报道可以从以下网址取得，我也没必要把整个过程写下，毕竟我的文笔也没有那些报导员好嘛！
光华日报
http://www.kwongwah.com.my/news/2009/03/21/53.html
星洲日报
http://ent.sinchew-i.com/node/12584
问我整个演唱会最喜欢的部分是哪一个？
还用说吗，当然是慢歌部分咯！阿妹唱的第一首慢歌《记得》，让我的眼泪，情不自禁的从眼角落了下来！可能这首歌给我的回忆太多了，再加上阿妹的用情，实在令我很失控！接下来还有几首抒情歌，如：《蓝天》、《真实》、《原来你什么都不想要》、《我要快乐》等，我都会一边跟着唱，一边掉泪！（不是狂掉泪啦，只是眼眶装满泪水而已）这种经验，我还真的是第一次。
还有一首歌，让我发自内心的震撼、崇拜、仰慕她的唱功，就是： 《如果你也听说》。。。再加上那突然变成满天星的舞台，真的是超漂亮，超有感觉！简直就是完美的搭配！
这一切还是要你亲身体验，才会明白到底我在说什么。
虽然这一次的阿妹看起来有点累，但表现依然是那么的出色！从一开始就一直努力的把现场每一个人带进她的歌曲里，让每个人都投入其中！
在最后一段的安歌部分，我也失控的站起来大唱及摇摆！好像我也在开演唱会一样！太不是我了！
这一次演唱会的观众，男女老少都有。坐在我旁边的正是一对母子，孩子看起来只是小学生，但他偶尔也会跟着大家一起唱阿妹的歌，不错嘛！当那小学生开口唱时，我有看到他母亲一脸惊讶的样子！说真的，我也有点吓到啦！
只可惜，坐在我们周围及前面的观众，看起来有点严肃及“成熟稳重”！好像都不爱大喊大叫、大动作！搞到我和朋友们都不敢乱来，怕会打扰到他们似的！反而坐在最高层的反应比较热烈，感觉比较热闹！就连阿妹也有察觉到，你说死不死？！哈哈！阿妹还说：“你们怎么那么客气啊？！想站就站起来啊！”
第一次和第二次完完全全是不一样的经历！我真的很期待第三次！
以上一切纯属个人意见。（我没有在刻意打广告哦！没钱收的！^_^）
我发现原来很多观众都把当天的演唱会，片段式的录了下来，一一上载在youtube! 只要你打“张惠妹-2009 STAR TOUR 大马演唱会”，一大把的搜寻结果将会显示在你面前！不相信当晚我们是从头尖叫到尾？不相信我们有那么的high？不相信我所说的？就去youtube感受一下吧！（不过看视频，怎样也比不上看现场！^_^）
Saturday, February 21, 2009
In KL now
Well, my purposes for this KL trip were:
Interview with one of the recruit company
US Visa Application
Canada Visa Application
Look for opportunities in KL area
and of course, the foods which I'll never miss out whenever I visit KL.
I reached here on Tuesday evening. Let's see what I have completed for these 4 days:
Interview with one of the recruit company- completed, but didn't seems to be successful due to the job's scope and salary.
US Visa Application- In progress, as I'm still waiting for my payment for US Embassy to get through, so that I can make an appointment for interview....this is the most troublesome task which cause me to stay back in KL for another week.
Canada Visa Application- Completed, but...in the visa, under Passport No. column, they fill in my birthdate??!! Is that normal? error? or what? I have tried to call the immigration, but no one was answering my phone, so I also need to wait until next Monday, in order to get thing clear.
Look for opportunities in KL area - there are few vacancies suitable for me, but the only things I worry is How much pay will I get? Is it enough for me to cover my expenses in KL? And how should I explain to my family?
While for the foods, I don't eat so actively anymore like I previously did. There are a lot of reasons behind this, so, just don't talk about it here.
So, you should know what's the conclusion for this entry right?!
The answer is, Nothing was Properly Done.
p/s: I'm too lazy to write about my CNY and some other long stories entry, but I did post some photos and wrote the descriptions in my Facebook. It's like a "story telling photos". Hope you guys don't mind. Hahaha.
Interview with one of the recruit company
US Visa Application
Canada Visa Application
Look for opportunities in KL area
and of course, the foods which I'll never miss out whenever I visit KL.
I reached here on Tuesday evening. Let's see what I have completed for these 4 days:
Interview with one of the recruit company- completed, but didn't seems to be successful due to the job's scope and salary.
US Visa Application- In progress, as I'm still waiting for my payment for US Embassy to get through, so that I can make an appointment for interview....this is the most troublesome task which cause me to stay back in KL for another week.
Canada Visa Application- Completed, but...in the visa, under Passport No. column, they fill in my birthdate??!! Is that normal? error? or what? I have tried to call the immigration, but no one was answering my phone, so I also need to wait until next Monday, in order to get thing clear.
Look for opportunities in KL area - there are few vacancies suitable for me, but the only things I worry is How much pay will I get? Is it enough for me to cover my expenses in KL? And how should I explain to my family?
While for the foods, I don't eat so actively anymore like I previously did. There are a lot of reasons behind this, so, just don't talk about it here.
So, you should know what's the conclusion for this entry right?!
The answer is, Nothing was Properly Done.
p/s: I'm too lazy to write about my CNY and some other long stories entry, but I did post some photos and wrote the descriptions in my Facebook. It's like a "story telling photos". Hope you guys don't mind. Hahaha.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Caring...
Caring means what to you?
I know its hard to find an exact definition, even for myself.
Cares, can be express in different ways for different person, different condition, different relationship and etc.
In my family, we care each other in our hearts, and we will never express it out. I don't know why its so hard for us to care in action or in verbal. We know we love each other so much, but all this time, we were just supporting each other mentally, never, and never face-to-face. Sometimes I was so envy with those who can hugs and holds their parents so lovely.
I never think and never expect that there's a friend who will cry for me, just after reading the status on my Facebook. Not a very close friend, hardly meet up and also hardly talk with each other, and this was how she cares about me. I was so touch and sad when I heard she cried. I was touch because I never think that the words of mine would be so influential to others; I was sad because I never appreciate others who really cares about me. My dear friend, I would like to thank you so much for waking me up. I should have appreciate what I have now, take good care of myself and never let's others who care me get dissapointed. I will put in my heart and tell myself, there's always you at the far end, supporting and caring me all the time.
I know its hard to find an exact definition, even for myself.
Cares, can be express in different ways for different person, different condition, different relationship and etc.
In my family, we care each other in our hearts, and we will never express it out. I don't know why its so hard for us to care in action or in verbal. We know we love each other so much, but all this time, we were just supporting each other mentally, never, and never face-to-face. Sometimes I was so envy with those who can hugs and holds their parents so lovely.
I never think and never expect that there's a friend who will cry for me, just after reading the status on my Facebook. Not a very close friend, hardly meet up and also hardly talk with each other, and this was how she cares about me. I was so touch and sad when I heard she cried. I was touch because I never think that the words of mine would be so influential to others; I was sad because I never appreciate others who really cares about me. My dear friend, I would like to thank you so much for waking me up. I should have appreciate what I have now, take good care of myself and never let's others who care me get dissapointed. I will put in my heart and tell myself, there's always you at the far end, supporting and caring me all the time.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Like this or like that???
What should I do right now??
I really couldn’t stand you anymore. Since you have so many dissatisfactions to me, then why don’t you just tell you mother and brother, ask them to make me disappear in front of you.
Why should I stay there, why should I be so patient with you, why should I be so cheap?!!
I’m human also, not that you’re my auntie then I should let you do anything which you think is right. Do you know I seriously very hate you!
Right now, I don’t feel like talking with you; I don’t want to listen to you voice, even you’re not talking with me; I don’t want to listen to your footsteps; I don’t like to see you!!! And I hate you so much!
I know I should forgive people’s fault, just as what God teach us! Forgive means happiness! I know!!! But I just don’t know how to forgive you; you are the alien that I couldn’t accept you!
Almost half a year, how much tears did I dropped just because of you?!!! Why should my tears drop because of you?! Even when I was in US, staying alone, very sad, very depress, I also won’t drop as much tears as I have in this six months.
Why!!!Why!!!Why!!!
If it’s not because of my dad, for sure I had leaved this hell place few months ago! I give face to my dad, be patient to you, stand you, and at the end, what did I get? Just a word, non-appreciation!
As I mentioned before, no one appreciate your hard work! In you all opinion, sitting in the office for a long time, everyday OT until 8.30pm, working in public holiday, is the sign of hard work. If I was not assigned a work, should I sit in the office until 8.30pm? If I sit in the office online and play games from 9am to 8.30pm, is that means that I’m very hard working??????
Who trained me as a lazy bug in the office? And at the end who blamed me, why I’m so lazy? Nothing to do is consider lazy, and who is the person who as my leader, didn’t assign a work for me.
Interested of knowing how I pass the day like this?
The worse ‘nothing –to-do’ day! In the morning I get into the office, switch on my computer, then go to have my breakfast. After breakfast, sit in front of my computer, read CNN news, check emails, friendster, facebook, net surfing, and online shopping. After tired of reading the computer, straight away take a nap on my working table, after napping, wake up again, looking at the computer again, until 6pm.
Some of you might think this is a very good life, why don’t I appreciate that?! Try to stand on my side and think, if you were me, is this the day that you want for the rest of your life?
The more I have this kind of life, the more I was de-motivated. My enthusiasm to work had lost just because of this place.I really need a place that can motivate me, I need to achieve my goal, I need to be proud of myself, I want to be the most confident person in this world. Where’s the image that I create for myself? Where’s my dream? Where’s my future?
I want to get rid of this kind of working life! Not even have a feeling that I was working, even though I was wearing a formal wear to work everyday, still couldn’t create this feeling for myself.
How should I explain my feeling to my parents and grandmother? At least if my parents understand me, I will be very glad and satisfied. But the problem is, I don’t even know who is supporting me to make the leaving decision.
I have a very traditional Chinese thought’s family. To continue this kind of life, or to get to a new life, it’s all depends on how powerful am I to change their mind~!!!
Arrrrggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
永远洗不掉的画面
在这特别的夜晚， 突然心血来潮， 把收藏在柜子里已久的盒子， 拿了出来。 虽然柜子是盖住的，但盒子上还是沾了 一层薄薄的灰尘。 把表面的灰尘除掉， 慢慢的把它打开。。。看见了一堆往年朋友给我的来信。。。保存得很好，没有任何损坏，只是信封和信纸有一点变黄的现象！
算一算·看一看， 信封·信纸·邮票， 好像都离现在的我好远好远似的！在我眼里，那一切都成了世上最珍贵的礼物·宝贝！我真的真的好怀念写信·等待和收信的心情。。。那些亲切感，只有可以从对方的笔迹感受到! 现实社会的email, msn....虽然是把距离拉近了，但毕竟还是差那一个“亲切感”。
把盒子里的信翻一翻， 看见了一个非常熟悉且亲切的笔迹。。。那是我小学六年级的级任老师，尤姗姗老师的字体。。。我和老师，自小学毕业之后，一直都有通信。。。一直到Form 4, 一切都停止了！大家都开始了愈来愈忙碌的生活，渐渐的就失去联络了。。。
在我心情低落时，老师一直鼓励我要坚强，要往好的方面想，时常用名句，短短的几句话，包含的意识却非常丰富！你曾经说过：
你的每一句金言，都在我生命中扮演了非常重要的角色。。。十年前的句子，用在十年后，还是那么的贴切。。。这可真所谓： “话不怕老，最重要是管用”！
你也曾经说过，你以我为荣。。。这十年里，我相信，我都没让你失望过！我一直往上爬，不放弃的，而最终我得到了这一份无价的报酬。。。我终于达到了我人生前半部的目标，成功了！
如果当初没有你来帮我制造信心，现在的我会是什么样的我呢？
谢谢你在我小学的最后一年，让我过得那么多姿多彩！
还记得当时有一个领养计划，每位老师都必须领养五个学生。。。谢谢你让我成为五个的其中一个，谢谢你，一直试着去了解我，关心我，疼我，爱我。。。
谢谢你，让我觉得我活在这个世界上是有价值的。
尤老师，我真的很想念你！不知道现在的你身在何处，最近过得好不好？我真的很想再与你见面！我非常的希望，可以再一次联络上你。。。好想你！
我永远都不会忘记那一年，1997 年，北海中华中校，6B班！班上的每一个情节，每位同学的名字·长相。。。一切都历历在目！我真的好怀念你们
p/s: 重读后，发现了很多错字，所以把它们给改了！希望再也没有错误了吧！要不然啊，如果老师有机会看到的话，一定会“晕掉”。哈哈哈！
算一算·看一看， 信封·信纸·邮票， 好像都离现在的我好远好远似的！在我眼里，那一切都成了世上最珍贵的礼物·宝贝！我真的真的好怀念写信·等待和收信的心情。。。那些亲切感，只有可以从对方的笔迹感受到! 现实社会的email, msn....虽然是把距离拉近了，但毕竟还是差那一个“亲切感”。
把盒子里的信翻一翻， 看见了一个非常熟悉且亲切的笔迹。。。那是我小学六年级的级任老师，尤姗姗老师的字体。。。我和老师，自小学毕业之后，一直都有通信。。。一直到Form 4, 一切都停止了！大家都开始了愈来愈忙碌的生活，渐渐的就失去联络了。。。
在我心情低落时，老师一直鼓励我要坚强，要往好的方面想，时常用名句，短短的几句话，包含的意识却非常丰富！你曾经说过：
- 为自己找借口的人，永远都不会进步
- 不要太依赖别人的掌声来肯定自己，而是充实自己，做好自己，用自己的目标来肯定自己
- 有时候生活不在我们控制范围之内，但这也好，至少会有个意外的惊喜
- 只要尽了力· 问心无愧， 一切都已经不重要了
- 不要多愁善感，人要活的快乐点，活在当下前脚走了一步， 后脚就要放开，所以要快乐的向前走，那才是生活
- PMR只是一个路障需爬过，接着还有好多好多的人生路要继续，所以考好是勉励，考差了就是一个教训，从错误中学习，总之，尽了力，听天命！别气馁！
- 学业比活动重要，把时间放在那儿，成绩才是最好的报酬
你的每一句金言，都在我生命中扮演了非常重要的角色。。。十年前的句子，用在十年后，还是那么的贴切。。。这可真所谓： “话不怕老，最重要是管用”！
你也曾经说过，你以我为荣。。。这十年里，我相信，我都没让你失望过！我一直往上爬，不放弃的，而最终我得到了这一份无价的报酬。。。我终于达到了我人生前半部的目标，成功了！
如果当初没有你来帮我制造信心，现在的我会是什么样的我呢？
谢谢你在我小学的最后一年，让我过得那么多姿多彩！
还记得当时有一个领养计划，每位老师都必须领养五个学生。。。谢谢你让我成为五个的其中一个，谢谢你，一直试着去了解我，关心我，疼我，爱我。。。
谢谢你，让我觉得我活在这个世界上是有价值的。
尤老师，我真的很想念你！不知道现在的你身在何处，最近过得好不好？我真的很想再与你见面！我非常的希望，可以再一次联络上你。。。好想你！
我永远都不会忘记那一年，1997 年，北海中华中校，6B班！班上的每一个情节，每位同学的名字·长相。。。一切都历历在目！我真的好怀念你们
p/s: 重读后，发现了很多错字，所以把它们给改了！希望再也没有错误了吧！要不然啊，如果老师有机会看到的话，一定会“晕掉”。哈哈哈！
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