Do you know how much I hate you!!!

I've been working for four and a half month, everyday was a 'nightmare' for me!

I thought I could change you before I came back for work. I understand your situation, and I know how you feel, but you never allow people to walk into your heart! You never trust anyone and never never be supportive! I've heard lots of negative opinions about you, but I never being influence by them!

Things began to change since the first day I step into this office!
All the facts push me to believe that those negative opinions are more than true!

Days after days, everyday I have to work under a stressful condition. Those stress is not work load's stress, but the stress given by you, emotionally and mentally stress!

Nowadays, I realized that, I was not able to talk with you anymore. Not that I cannot speak, but I really don't feel like talking with you. In addition to that, I also don't feel like listening to your voice. I felt very frustrated and impatient to talk and listen to you.

Why everything will become like that? How am I going to continue working in such an environment and condition?! What should I do?

You said why I don't want to use my brain...
But have you ever think of, who made me don't like to use my brain.
When I was new to work, I was very enthusiast and motivated to work hard, learn hard, and try hard to change the office old system. I know I can do it. But every time I tried to work on my own way (not that that way is wrong or something changing too much), for sure you will say NO. You want everyone to follow your way, your old way, they way that never change for so many years.

Please la....last time 10 cents can buy a bowl of noodle, nowadays a bowl of noodle cost you more than RM3, 30 times of previous days! Do you think you use your '10 cents method' is competitive enough with nowadays '300 cents' market?

Those people who don't work with you always think that you have lots of work to do, everyday also OT, do until no time for entertainment, until no time for rest... But all of these were your own choice, and you are not efficient enough! Why are those developed western countries so advanced and so competitive in the market? Why are they the leader of the world economic? and have you ever seen they always OT until no time for entertainment and not time for rest?? The time is owned by yourself, how you arrange and manage your time, its all about yourself!

In order to success in one's job, we need to be effective and efficient! But both you also don't have! You always OT, but still, you cannot submit you work on the due date most of the time! Always left everything for the last minute, and when you couldn't finish them, you will show your face and temper to people beside you. Have you ever think of people's feeling? Do you know that how stress are they? For you to complete a statement or just a simple letter, you need to go through so many steps, not that all steps are necessary, sometimes you can just skip some unnecessary steps when you were in rush or lack of time!

Things can be done easily, but you want to make it so complicated! Steps that's so easy to explain, but you want to explain it in a complicated way! When people's don't understand your explanation, for sure will double confirm with you, but you will show your temper to them when they ask you again! You are always right and others are always wrong! You are the most holy people in this world, only your minds are clean and your thoughts are most right! Everything that's against your mind are wrong and need to be punish! You are so special because no one in this world is the same as you!

And one thing I would like to mention, you are not always right, you are human as well, human of course will made some mistakes. But no one dare to point out your mistakes because everyone treat you as the 'king' of the world! Say frankly, you are just an over-pampered children, and your mindset and emotion are just the same as those children!

I just can say, working under you, I will just become the laziest and most useless person in the world! Is that the life that I wish to have???